Why I Wrote It: “Mister Doubt Fire”

There can be a deep-seated, self-maintained glass ceiling on what I believe my capacities are.

There are technologies and people that take advantage of that, feeding their own dreams by feeding off our own vulnerabilities.

There is a God that can free us from this loop should we stay un-distracted.

It was hard to write this joint because (you guessed it), I feared it would be wack. Bryan (the engineer) and Ashton blessed me with a beat that I knew would push me a bit out of my boom bap templates. Hearing the joint “Rise” I did, they earnestly and thoughtfully reached out, and I sat on the beat forever. I was grateful that work was so crazy because that provided the perfect veil over the things that had me stuck.

Watching Netflix, scrolling through Facebook, and losing my concepts of time and purpose by binging Youtube became my medicine, and the algorithms for those services couldn’t have been happier. They were fulfilling their purpose, which was distracting me from mine.

I don’t see this situation being named a lot, but it’s made plenty visible by other folks I know. But these walks were isolated ones, ones in which we wear paper-thin masks.

The anxiety was becoming too pressurized. I committed to memory that God doesnt provide the Spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind, so I pushed the pen, and low and behold, the song was done in one sitting (rare for me).

For me, this song encourages me to stay out of that toxic loop. I hope it resonates with you in whatever toxic loops you face or have encountered.